days in forging stronger bond with Asoh, my Japanese Crowned Queen.

This is a gloomy morning. last night listened a strong sermon, but after returned to dorm, i know the connection between dad, God with me, is my treasure&never will be public like the bible. reviewing baby’s smartness, really felt painful for so many occasions i mistaken his wonderful beaming response as stupid or meaningful. God, u know how dear my baby son, warrenzh, owner of site warozhu.com, hope of China and God of Universe, is. every moment in office i longing moment with him. every moment with him brings so many touching warm memories.
Its a gloomy morning, but i know my second wife caring us. God, last night i met a girl closely, &her height reminds me of my girl zhou, who once appeared in QRRS. God, i never gave up her who is so pure&saint in ur care. God, u know how i love beauty, bring my girls in their prime time, in my prime time, my Empire asking for the blood-bond and shiny heirs.
also, as today in my second wife’s share, i need a dell game notebook, about ¥6000, a udisk, ¥300, a mobile ¥800, domains renewal ¥2000, hometown duty ¥1000. God, let me act in freedom.

26/9/2010

a day missing in sadness.^the most bright part today is around the noon. endured waiting for d/l. office once colleagues tentatively shown bonus dispatching among them. in the morning they summoned for meeting, i kept busy on desk as usual, for i decided its high time to switch my living support from the company, QRRS, a dying machine suffering fuel leaking by stealing mouse flocks among its staff, to Masheng (Asoh Yukiko), my Japanese Crowned Queen, my God of plenty&serene. cloudy usually let me indecisive, but hopeful tomorrow will bring me unshakable faith&confidence. the night it rains, cleaning&killing for me, sole for me, &so beautiful&formidable. watched rain in dorm’s door. bought food&met beautiful girls in QRRS dorms but don’t know where&who they r. roamed in dorm in music till after 10pm went to bed. woke up before 5am. ate breakfast, abiding God’s bliss&quite enjoy it. its cool&bright morning. Masheng (Asoh Yukiko), stay every moment with me!, bring our babies sooner in our marriage!

benzrad’s commment on the day

respectable Chinese lives long.

方舟子被打后首炮:质疑首席科学家刘维宁身份

China nowadays greatly obliged to persons like Dr. Fang, any society needs trust based on authentication. Dr. Fang is a real man, any Chinese should pay him salute.
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benzrad’s commment on the day

human right of net access.

hope sooner world nowadays adopts the human right of net access. human right likely under the guidance of humanity, ie. the beneficial of human being.
as to a Chinese on China mainland, i hope net can be more meaningful&positive impact upon the society’s innovation.

the UN Human Rights Council to adopt five new Internet freedoms: freedom of expression, of worship, from want, from fear, to connect. 

Universal Declaration of Human Rights (UDHR). Freedom from slavery. Freedom from torture. Equal protection under the law.  

from Joho the Blog » The Internet as a human right – www.hyperorg.com

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25/9/2010

dreamed of hunting killer.^dreamed of Japanese again in dawn. then dreamed passing Huangzhou, where i finished my senior middle school, in my hometown journey. 2 alumni, a Wang&a Zhang, met me. the Zhang on way to ship started to hunt for my life. its cloudy in this morning. sins in office damaged my network wire&tentatively shown it loosely on my desk. dog by it indicating of option to deprive me off Internet. fix it by replacing with a wire i stored. God, kill the thief in office.

24/9/2010

dreamed of Japanese family.^past 2 days with baby son in gaming full of joys, esp we succeeded all mission in game “Army Ranger: Mogadishu for PC”. baby shared the moment reading the ending product message after fury war field. today baby&his mom ema, who said will join family gathering&rarely at home, so she suggested i busy with my own business, don’t go over to accompany baby. dreamed of Japanese in dream. its sunny now. i hope i find fun today in office. God, let me connected with pulse&atop game industry. God, rid baby of boring. let him meaningful in silent moments in his life, like i do.

21/9/2010

a sunny day with new cyberspace footprint.^yesterday is busy. in night in dorm arranged claiming space for my hometown domestically, esp with 163&hexun, overnight. overseas profiles with yahoo&google already done years ago. this morning got up even earlier, likely before 6am when i settled in office. office sins both stayed at noon, while i enjoy the new space in memory of my ancestor, Zhudajiu, 朱大九. God, see my works there&lasting centuries, for ur glory under my ancestor since the Emperor of Ming Dynasty.
tomorrow is lunar Mid-Autumn Day. i longing now for gaming together with baby son, warrenzh. sunshine already shines the valley&bees wooing for delicacy. God, prepare me for the holy moment, for the gathering. my girls, come&let’s game, or make fun.

From life as it extends
From life as it extends

for google&flick blocked within China mainlnad for years, here some copy hosted domestic.


Bright full moon after lunar Mid-Autumn day in sky above QRRS front space.


baby glad&turns playful with his new clothes.

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September 27, 2010 at 9:11 am Leave a comment

4th&heaviest snow in lunar 2010.

23/2/2010

3rd snow in lunar 2010.^last night left office till 7pm, after tried to video chat with baby&his mom. their video stream strangely don’t appear in my browser while they saw my stream&their own working. remote desk also lagging to appear, all reminded me of cops’ breaking&showily espionage. dined in a special meal restaurant nearby my office, babbled about their management feature. a young girl and her boyfriend there before my visit, let me rightly smell the wonder of youth. in dorm, surfed via wap on cellphone lately after 10:30pm. China surveillance again blocked some mobile sites with which i can access my blog, which mostly deadly blocked in China, like wordpress, blogspot, posterous, tumblr, etc. this morning got up at 7:03am, washed socks, then head to office. shot some photos on way for the saint moment of snowing. Its likely the 3rd snow in lunar 2010 new year. God, i know u r killing dirt around me, i feel ur bliss on me. thanks for ur gift i felt so bright&holy. God, bring my girl zhou closer to me after all killings from u over dirt. bring me happy of warmth of sunshine after the cleanse. in office posting snow photos with a blog entry most of the morning. at noon buzzed baby’s mom, exchanged view on inflation of living cost, ie. fast food, the down dorms’ canteen. later cared download, all time in heavy biting. left office after 2pm. the dorm porter informed me to change to a room on 3rd floor, from my current 214 room. moved my stuff soon, then dozed awhile in the new lodge. left dorm on 3:33pm&joined office. the 2 evils in office stayed near 6pm. i dealt routine stuff, left near 7pm. in the restaurant, a family dined there with all seniors&kids. a likely couple of the family arrived later, the female’s tall&fit attracted me. in dorm read my posts i prepared via proxy&copied onto my cellphone wirelessly, now that China mobile network had blocked direct access. cracked seeds then soon slept. changing my room likely again a plot of dog: even occupied rooms in dorm 3 total no more than 7 or 9 rooms, but all my 3 neighbor rooms occupied. and the wall again like my first room in dorm 1st back to 2006 when i left my baby’s mom’s house first time to pursue my new marriage, extreme thin! likely just some paper frame seperate 2 rooms. in the night when i buzzed my baby son, i can sense echo passed through the thin wall and the listening ears all around. God, i don’t fear hunting of cheap souls nor desperate gays, but i do fed up with the wild dogs&dirty thieves. ur glory forever untouchable, God, i singing in ur name, singing for new level of endurance in ur bliess!

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From our lunar new year of 2010
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From our lunar new year of 2010
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From our lunar new year of 2010

for google album blocked within China mainland, here some copies hosted domestically:
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heavy wagon cleaning snow on main road of QRRS.
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fury snowflake in night lamps.
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my new room in QRRS dorm 3rd, likely dog’s new plot.

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benzrad’s daily tweets: Jan 20-23, 2010

23/1/2010
To my girl zhou: about our new life.^in the after dinner roam, my heart weightened by girl's anxious about how to support my new life with the lifestyle we wished. God let me more cherished what my girl zhou bring to me, from a clean hand, forever. and to relieve my girl's burden of support my new life, God has it: Masheng, ur money, as well as Japan's finiancial power, is the only money on the world that's growing with lives. help my girl zhou to arrange our new life, including the new house, that we deserve under God's shine, decorate it with simple, romantic, and secure. rid us all evil of espionage. always lighten my girl with Holy spirit, rather anxious about so called reality problems. i will since my being under God's shine many years ago choose live in Spirit. my dearest girl zhou, pl lend me ur hands, let's step into our new life Heaven grants. u will be the finiancer of China Corporate, world will sees China's prosperous, but never leave lightning Spirit even in split of second; never let money win ur sight, which would never happen on u, my dearest. Tonight the bottomless sky has a half moon, the forever family friend of Ming dynasty. let's pray its clear and clean glows hallow our Royal of China. pure and plenty of China and its Royal.

22/1/2010
slept all day.^last night in music till 11pm. got  up till 4pm&dined out with beef pies and mutton soup. now surfing.

21/1/2010
dogs barked upon me.

20/1/2010
dined with baby son&his mom.^last night dined with baby son. a dog behind him tentatively poked baby's head when baby playing on his chair. kill the dog at once&told baby the death. Masheng, let ur special action squad do it, slaughter the dog insulting at once. got up lately after 8am. its again a bright day in brilliant sunshine. posted recent photos.

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murmur&mandate in transit life.

29/12
dreamed a lot.^last night thought some time on bed before fell into sleep. dreamed of family, hometown folks, colleagues, alumni. also dreamed of many places. dreamed in my palace with a servant eat cookies for VIPs. got up urined then dozed till after 9am. in office dealt my GAE, with the forum's author's new direction, finished most apps&new forums' setup. my girl zhou first time holding a man's arms to urge me act. felt cold upon the changes. roamed around the front area of QRRS, first don't want to meet my girl, then God let me don't lose passion, so try to follow her, but don't find her in the rush float of QRRS staff. reviewed my situation in dorm, tried to contact the high rank in QRRS, a Zhou, twice for invoice the love between my girl&me, but can't connect neither his office nor home phone. God, help my girl zhou killing dirts around her, killing dogs blocking between us, not matter cops or mafia. Royal of China, in my title, forever sane, saint&untouchable beautiful. my new life with my girl zhou should descends in the beginning of 2010. God, reinforce me with love&do right immediate, blow away hatred&dark the evil try their best to horse me down.

28/12
my girl zhou turns playful.^dreamed of easy sex among my senior middle school alumni. fight for pure love&its sex. dreamed in dawn some ants eating bees, breaking their shells. dozed again after washed head. in office restored os. read awhile ebook on axis of evil: communism left in the world, among biting from facing dog. its a bright morning. greet my girl in rush time, she first time shown her proactive guesture after passed over my office. roamed some time to avoid dirty dog on facing desk. read awhile before return to dorm. immersed in an ebook on cyber war in dorm, till tired&dozed. felt lucky again upon my coming family with my girl zhou. waited her after dinner&follow her till cross road. praying God i can live with her sooner, i really love her, her figure this time i closely perceived. review my love for girl zhou after returned dorm&pray God let me in Heaven with a new family with my girl zhou sooner. buzzed baby's mother about dining out agenda, then roamed outside. met cop on the way. the evil plots detaining me in asylum or prison. bought 2 eggs&ate.

27/12
dreamed of sex with my girl zhou.^last night enjoyed music a lot. in dawn dreamed in my palace sex with my girl zhou, my other wives, one is likely Masheng, my second wife from Japan, and my baby son, also present. then dreamed a guy in the contest of driving electronic game, but his game controller bad, so i lent him my mouse or cellphone to control. bought socks&inner pants. continued to fix down forum of be21zh.org, failed again. try to contact the app's author. after lunch debug the app again in dorm till it works. returned to office to update the app online but it strangely don't work online. the facing dog soon visit office&stayed there all time when i busy debugging. at first the gay biting heavily, after i dealt with email from the author of the app, biting turns down. the dinner tasteless. in dorm gloomy attacted me. felt lonely. listen music in night. do personal care.

26/12
got up after 9am. dozed again till seeing bright sunshine outside. roamed some time outside. listen music&reveiw my love after lunch, dozed again for boring. doubting if QRRS reschedules so visit office. found office empty while neighbor depart all on duty. launched to fix my forum at http://forum.be21zh.org, where a wrongly created forum let homepage broken. posted daily tweet, failed fix the app&gave up till after 5pm. continued fix it in dorm by setup GAE&succeeded. reviewed my love in music. the half full moon clearly&serenely glows in mid sky.

25/12
the 5th snow, a heavy snow.^last night slept later in high mood. a bit restless on bed&fell into sleep lately. this morning woke up after 9:30am. dreamed of my wedding ceremony, but i seemingly not happy like should be, also don't familiar with my wife&peek her privately. dreamed Chinese force squad, ie. army&police, practised (cyberspace) dealing hajack in a large office tower, likely CCTV, herds of police equipped with pistols or guns, but just wait&track the man kidnapped a someone, in the countless rooms&corridors&stairs. its likely also an electronic war, for in the dream i strongly dispised the vomitting defensive attitude on Internet China sinful authority nowadays adopted. in office published recent photos with a blog entry expressing. greet my girl zhou, who walked alone under my office to assure me our saint private connection exists anytime&everytime, against in yesterday's rush time evil arranged trifle persons' attempting to mess up. busy with refined my forum, one of my google app engines, at http://forum.be21zh.org, in the afternoon, fine tuned page's template, correct google friend connect due to url remapping. the department gathered for lunch out, let me alone in office. the facing dog second day in serial lingered in office&darting poisons even in his vacation. it snows all day&covered ground thick. roamed outside the dorms area after 7pm, picked the crowd in the local church, where hosting a singing&dancing party for Jesus, almost wept with a song when review my love&missing for God&my girls, esp. girl zhou, who is praying for our fruit of love so sincerely. reviewed my love for baby son, God of Universe, and my girl zhou, my heart harden with blesses that our deep harmony in our coming marriage seeds more.

24/12
dreamed of George H. W. Bush.^last night dreamed with bless in songs. dreamed my elder brother. killing a tortoise by cutting its head twice with blade釬 when it stick out. look into the possible evil in elder brother's. dreamed in dawn accompanying George H. W. Bush in his election team. bush is a kind&easy man with lots of original ideas, while his wife manages lots of things. later seemingly i was in my own election team. got up lately near 9am. felt glad so many lucky things in my life ahead&can't help count days in exciting, like Spring festival in eyes of a child. read in office in the morning, saluted my girl in bright sunshine. busy with refining family 163 blogs, built groups within each family member's account, ie. IIDChina, faezrland, emagarten, warranzh. sorted stuff got from web&portable. got a bonus of ¥200 for the New Year's Day from QRRS. treat baby son&his mom with fried lamb leg as scheduled, such a great moment with baby son, never words can express the elation. snows killing since i ruturned to the dorm. i felt so contented, Dad, God. i finally got my white wine after waited for so many days. God blessed the world of good, as all sees, esp. those homeless and live poor, live them with hope&surprise, as i can do it myself.

23/12
dreamed of love. life in our own rhythm in central China on agenda.^last night went to bed on time for too eager for Thursday when i will treat baby son&his mom in nearby restaurant with fried lamb leg. in dawn dreamed of circus, my elder sister&2 kid brother(i had only one kid brother in fact. in dream the kid brother help to perform is a tall young man, likely the actor in recent Korea TV series in CCTV1) help. i urged to treat animals with kindness forever. its atmosphere is happy and love, seemingly my marriage is to forged&relatives all looking forward it. then dreamed in drama, ema's relative, a tall female, appears in it. its really a loving&touching night, for in dreams all emotion floats loves&best wishes. got up earlier, before 7:30am, too exciting these days for my new life ahead.
in office read feeds. then claimed family namespace with free first level domain in .tk. sorted bookmarks&portable. met my girl once, but for busy with the domain felt at a loss more or less when saluting my girl after passions last night. after dinner met my girl again near the front door of QRRS. trifle persons still puffing sands amid us, but i see clear my girl with me like a bud, a slim&tall bud with dews from Heaven on it, leaving me in our vested valley alone pursue her wind, color, dance, and perfume. God, i forever cherish my girl zhou's lean soul&cordiality in the life we bound since love dents our hearts. dogs in the dorm i now linger brought thick dirts, and foully smessy, but God see my girls' intact, in my title. arranged tomorrow's treat with baby&his mom. roamed again around, God let me arrange my new life after married my girl zhou, i definitely longing the strong sunshine in my hometown. and i missing my kid brother, who still fighting a rootless living in southern China with his family, very much. i would buy he&his family a new house in the county, Wuxue, or help he settle down in the city with a business, according his long time wish. i would like buy a new house in the small county city with my own family, too, enjoy the sunshine and clear seaons with plenty rains&thunderstorms. i also need refurnish house of my passed dad, God, Founder of new Empire of China, in the blessed mountain village, Zhudajiu.

22/12
dreams. joyful moment with my girl zhou.^last night went to bed earlier, just around 9pm. dreamed with some aged researching sand&underground water. dreamed on Lushang廬山, Jianxi Prov., China, likely with my spouse, on a bridge. research its missing lakes, villa of Jiangjieshi蔣介石 there, etc. those days also doubting where is my girl Lü, whose neaty&independent enchanted me a lot when she came over to emakingir's house for tutorial, and fight with ema for her hope to marry me&succeeded. she is my first wife that arrives later. her brewing of loving me for years in loneliness while so young wins respects from all my wives. posting tweet in office, refined geotagged photos. read within greader since then. my girl zhou again affirmed our love&her being blessed. gays in the office building, esp. the fake ganster who in fact a thin lamb or lame duck in neighbor room tried to dirt. snowing likely gathering to kill tonight. after dinner roamed&ran into rush time of QRRS, but don't see my girl in the crowd. the early serene moon and white snowflakes falling all around really too beautiful. especially felt auspicious tonight, which snowing. Masheng, closer to me&let's enjoy family life earlier, let it starts with my new life in the beginning of 2010, if u r ready. promised me never leave me alone in ur soul nor physically. i love u&thankful, God sees. i wouldn't let u alone care our first son, my second son, nor with our other 2 sons when we both in mid age&thanksful&perceptive, years only adds wise&lean soul, no change in ur forever young beauty. just coming into my reach. and BTW, how is u now with baby son, warrenzh, Hope of China, God of Universe? this night we stay together, and should so forever.
all night listening music, and retrospect my love.

21/12
dreamed of hometown.^last night the corridor's lamps all can't light up. strange persons&sounds in the dark floor. in dawn dreamed returning to hometown, where hosts celebrating banquet for me. dreamed of shitting. posted recent photos&refined my google maps, posted recent lengthy tweets to blogs. seeing my girl zhou's encourages for me in rush time, really inspiring! read feed&tried some tips in it. baby's mom buzzed in at noon, i persuade her not to come over to hand in momey for my life settled well&she accepted. reviewed my love history&deeply touched by the being blessed. God, sees me&my prayer.

20/12
dreamed of baby son.^late sleep. dreamed of freaky hooligans, who kidnapped travelers in Shangdong by pretending railway station staff. the victims in heavy rains forced to believe in the freaks. baby son in later dream&signed me to notice spies outside of the door. for sunshine really bright so haunted around&shot some photo for QRRS' stylish buildings, sorted them after returned dorm. dozed after lunch, dreamed of almost sex with baby's mother, but stopped by spying eyes. then dreamed of God, my dad, asked him to save my girl, girl zhou or ema. all night staying room reveiwing my situation.

19/12
sound sleep.^last night first time changed my dose&it worked well. i got up till 10:30am. dozed again after lunch, dreamed of gain large fortune&met my sister in hometown. dreamed chosen to act as referee in sports game&trained in contest. all afternoon in dozed. roamed around the dorm area after dinner&felt misery in chill of wind. stay in dorm all night, nor buzz baby to avoid freaky surveillance.

18/12
Dad's memory day.^Today is the day dad pasted me for 3 years. last night i check my site for him. dreamed preparing English exam. in dawn dreamed help my once dempartment before it broke into now 2 parts designing its magzine. dreamed sorting porn video disks. last night slept soon$sound. since last night i had comsumed all of one kind of pills, only left another pills for my dose. its a brilliant morning. in office clear recent feeds of google services update&IT news. tried lots of chrome extensions. sorted portable suite with updates esp. those extensions. my girl missing in rush time. the department director told me aid from QRRS amounts to ¥500&coming later. haunted community free cafe again. the only pc installed deepfreeze software left to me, strangely unlike other pcs in China nowadays Internet cafe, don't auto restore on power on. heavily been hacked, ie. remotely controlled. check my google maps&other family sites. buzzed baby's mom&refused her suggestion to take over my old medcines there. let baby son known his grandpa's anniversary&he nodded it. reviewed for 2 hours after return dorm the evil China surveillance&dogs cast on me&shocked. killing all the old dirty stuff on this freaky land is badly needed for a new China.

17/12
dreamed of infant baby son.^last night It started to snow to kill dirts. tried again posting daily tweet in unsafe cafe, by posting to my forum at http://forum.be21zh.org ,where allows posting anonymously&denying delete. met the canteen's owner&talked about my blessed fate&my new wife. a male dog there heavily profaned. slept later for preparing feeds reader for mobile environment. dogs' biting let me restlessly awhile. dreamed hometown gathering, where a once neighbor wife chatted with me. got up&dozed again. dreamed in dawn baby son when he is infant. heartbroken love for him for he is so little&young. regret since last night for i talked to his mom 2 days but didn't call him. regret turns strong&buzzed ema&baby when they visit clinic to fix baby's pested teech but unable to talk for noise there. the monitor told me the facing guy these days in his vacation. so i can adopt the lan wire he previously occupied. all afternoon then stay online to prepare mobile working space, ie. portable chrome with my bookmarks, my subscription reader, backup them to web drive&online office. also posted delayed tweets&calendar events. surfed in community free cafe after buzzed baby son. dogs in China surveillance hacked me face by face, using batch to xcopy my portable suite after i plug my udisk, deleted my browser's personal settings seconds after i unpacked it to hard disk from my udisk, all this likely just shown their spying tools' power, for the long history of tracking my web traffic got them most of my confidentials, with which I also do my best to set them open&universal accessible. google China also shown my web id listed in filtered contents. when i left, snow killing as it did last night.

16/12
updated my status in turbulence. dreamed join American army in US.^China surveillance upon me turns freaky. the office dogs seated just after i arrived. i at once tried to use the monitor's corporate lan to update my twitter, but soon broke twice for the leaving and returning monitor, who later made lots of complains that after my unplug his lan wire, he can't reconnect to the web after rejoin the lan. God sees how the demon tentatively made the unusual problem happen on his pc (it never happen on my notebook). busy with finishing scheduled task, including creating a new flick group for my namespace, IIDChina, so missed saluting to my girl Zhou in QRRS rush time, but caught her in the rush time of beginning of afternoon. she walked alone the other lane, showing reservation on me. God, i never want conflicts in my rest marriages. i deserves peace and deep harmony between my partners and me from now on, for ur glory uncomparable on the earth.
dined early to prepare to salute my girl zhou, but dogs plotting to trap me in sexual infamous. so sheered back to dorm. haunted awhile the community free cafe. baby's mother, emakingir, asked me to help refined her course demo's video.
dreamed joined American army with a brother or pal. on the train or queue toward frontline. and life after retired, with my family, likely including my wife and son in US.
refined portable suite. the department director invited to talk, urging me now first receive my old family's aid before the applied aid from QRRS arrive. reveals as i talk my girl appears in QRRS rush time&my treating the high rank of QRRS, a Zhou, whom i asked to borrow ¥3000 the day i rejoin QRRS' dorm, as my father-in-law. reveals i was basically a Christian. idle all time in office. ema later told me in phone she got her edited video. review my being blessed in dorm alone.

15/12
post recent blog. first time met my girl zhou on the ground.^Its a brilliant day. post blog wrote yesterday in office in a breeze, with all photos from our treat in KFC Tiedong franchise. in dorm review my love with girl Masheng, zhou, the Taiwan girl. dined near QRRS' over time then roamed alone its main road, met girl Zhou just under my office, follow her and her pals till she departed all&enter the lane she likely residents. praying God not a too embarrassing nor zigzag course before we got wired under a same roof. God, i totally under her charm, and got me her arms around me the sooner the better. watched Yangge collective dance after dinner on the square of QRRS, its beauty grasped me at once. female's tendering touch me in any vein or visional method when i was stopped. woke up early, about 5am, dreamed in a camp with a mother, likely girl Zhou, with her daughter. i was with my baby son. we tried to correct our babies.

14/12
reveiw my pastime with Masheng in music of Daolang.^most day idle. trying to use the community free cafe but sucked by the stupid&evil door keeper woman. dozed for more than 1 hours after noon as last weekend, then wrote a blog about my ordain. review my love&those pecular moments with Masheng in Nankai Univ when i there persue a master degree, with touching music by Daolang刀郎, a western China muscian. tried again to use community cafe, but found dogs surveillance me on every presence, and plotted detailedly to defame me in losing. God shown me every device&trap. killing dog is the persistant job for my family&I should never forget it.

13/12
tried to make use of community free Internet cafe to prepare posting photos but failed.^last day busy with preparing a portable suite to work on free Internet hub within QRRS dorms, where all pc heavily infected with malware&spyware. tried it after dinner, almost succeeded but backup data wrongly so most works lost. dreamed war fire and holy message that with endurance&persistence all things&disconfort runs straight. later dreamed caring baby son, urging him to put on shoes to leave, but he playful till his mom arriving. we watched an aged practising calligraphy, which likes dao道 (means way in English) but with differences.

12/12
posted a blog with photo for 4th snow&Masheng's descending last afternoon.^shot snow scene on way to office. Its likely the thickest snow of 2009. posted these photos with a blog entry to my blogs. ema came over to settle bank stuff, ie. destroy my old salary account, deposit for baby monthly. for clerk said now an account with 2 withdraw methods (a card&a book) not supported, i gave up holding the credit card&left it baby's mother. such a maverallous time in KFC franchise. lots of shots. first time i bought family suite of fried chiecken. check posting in night in dorms open cafe. this morning dreamed of fans of popstar, like Korean or Chinese, like Guohan郭韓. we with their agency in a room underground. also fight with some kids likely including the baby girl in KFC franchise yesterday. preparing portable suite now for mobile working space. dozed first time on bed after noon, dreamed a kid girl accompany me for a long time in tunnel. my second baby would be a daughter with girl Zhou. my 3rd son is one of the fruits with the Taiwan girl, in my 4th marriage which forged for us by my dad himself.

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bright days, new life pending.

these days mostly sunny days, with warm air and enlightening sun ray. this week i enjoyed my working space a lot: with twitter updates in view, and instant message of most accounts ready at fingertip. what’s most exciting, i got google voice for 3 family google accounts, in the cheat of American user. even now i don’t have a single friend outside of inland, i still felt quite contented with the powerful tool google offers. i in view the day China united with the freedom world in borderless clearly. i envision China can be a interesting and respectable partner of the fruitful Christian culture.

also we got quite some social sites interwoven. i finished the needed authentication to let post to my facebook, twitter via 3rd part tools, like seesmic or brizzly, both too nice to miss. i see its quite right to make full use of this kind of posting against spying eye from day to day harsh China surveillance. the world of cyberspace merging into coherence while China authority tries all its means to separate China from the world democracy, Chinese to global citizen.

this week we less gamed, for after experience so many breathtaking large games, baby son and me both loathed to try less interesting games, or small games. but a recent release, “De blob”, attracted him 2 nights. he gamed it alone. we also picked his favorite game, “Cloudy with a Chance of Meat Balls”, we made progress in once dead lock in another large game.

its a peaceful warm winter afternoon now. i didn’t saw the tall girl in QRRS for 2 days, in the rush time of QRRS, my once and long time employer, a state-owned enterprise. last time when i shown my salute from my office window, she abrupt cut way to the other side of the road just under my window with her female companion. i see its a signal of her loath of waiting and being watched. the coming 2 days i busy in office, missing the rush time people’s flow outside of the lane. i really don’t intend to do anything, i trust God to bring me my beloved. and by the way, now i want to attend my baby till he grows 8 years on the earth. on the other side, i would never miss a chance to live in the harmony with my girl, in warmth of new life.

its work time now. dogs around biting heavily as usual. the day before yesterday i decided to give up the inspire upon a cute girl in the community of 139.com, a affiliate of the monopoly of Chinamobile. i got holy message that the name is complicated for me, for my longing for sanity and dewy, longing of pure girl. i see ever brighter future of my love.

bye for now, all my beloved. i pray u r in right mood and feeling love of the blessed, love of peace. winter coming, chill gathering, but lasting is the saint and pure light heart.

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the road every day baby son, warren zhu, took the bus to his kindergarten. the far end is railway telcom.

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the best beloved, warren zhu, hope of China and God of universe, in fighting game, in his mom’s house, with his new pants.

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sunset, tower, and ravens’ gathering in early winter in Qiqhar.

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new moon appears early in early winter dusk.
 
baby son, warren zhu, hope of China, in his fighting game, with his favorite new pants. 

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Temporary while forever lasting pleasure of now



the vacation of China National Day and lunar Mid-Autumn Day, almost passed. baby son, warren zhu, and me, benzrad, enjoyed larger and newer games which can drive my new acer AS 4736G to its full load, beyond wilderness. i also made good use of time when i was left with baby alone when his mom attending her school, to let baby son know more God and the mission of our Royal of China. i also condemned his mother and her family a lot. also a lot of time wasted attending games’ download, which very lagging. we just found the beauty of larger pc games, like "Frontline: fuel of war" and "call of duty: modern warfare", both larger than 4 GB, which cost me for 2 and more days to download from p2p. i tried "Frontline" with baby son, who also been attracted at once, but later baby son ditched me and follow his visiting uncle’s playing with it, for the uncle more a veteran on games. he was asked to come over to break my intimate time with baby by baby’s mother, who likely felt my talk and my critics with baby upon her when she absent.

these days in vacation really sometimes ignite my sex desire. i longing for my girls a lot. but i sure seeing God consoles me with our promised gathering with all my beloved in coming months. i saw God let me endure to lighten the coming elation of new life. i promise all my girls of my full heart, with full fruitful.

its a gloomy morning. i don’t fear the spying eyes from China surveillance. i saw budding like spring rains, weak but insistent. i saw blessing of God like warmest and brightest sunshine, killing and healing. i saw my promised love like rains rampant and torrential.

 

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an early full moon near lunar Mid-Autumn Day.

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